Did I tell you that I am forfeit Christmas this year? Well I did. So when I say that I went Christmas shopping, I meant that I was going for me. I spent a great day at St. Vital yesterday. (There was no tax in the entire mall, and there are a lot of sales!) I spent a lot of money on boots, considering that I just bought a pair of boots 2 weeks ago.
Don't get me wrong, I love the Christmas season! It's my favorite time! But this year...I just can't wait for this year to end!
2009 better be nice to me!!
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
tsk tsk
Oh Money Mart?? Will I ever be rid of you??
What is there to share, except for the fact that my bosses boyfriend saw someone commit suicide!!!!! I can't even begin to imagine what that must have been like?? If that were me, I'd be traumatized!
=(
The only thing else that I want to share is that it's crazy cold in my apartment! I may as well live in a igloo!
Brrrrrr!!
What is there to share, except for the fact that my bosses boyfriend saw someone commit suicide!!!!! I can't even begin to imagine what that must have been like?? If that were me, I'd be traumatized!
=(
The only thing else that I want to share is that it's crazy cold in my apartment! I may as well live in a igloo!
Brrrrrr!!
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Off the Ground
"A man is either trying to live up to his father's expectations, or to make up for his mistakes."- Barack Obama
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Friday, November 14, 2008
If I Were a Boy
I've found a new love in the new album by Beyonce, even though it's not officially released yet. If you haven't heard or seen the video "If I Were a Boy"....it's a MUST! (Mostly because this is EXACTLY how I feel right now).
I want to watch the new James Bond movie. But I can't really remember what happens in Casino Royal, which apparently I have to watch before I can see this one.
Wanna tag along?
(You're always going to look at me in that same, resentful stare that I'm sure you think I don't notice. The one you try to hide behind your smiles, and "I'm doing ok" attitude. Where we don't talk about anything important or real. And I'M always going to look you in the same, resentful stare that I'm sure you notice. The one I try to hide behind smiles, and "I'm doing ok" attitude. Where we continuously don't talk about anything real or important).
......
I want to watch the new James Bond movie. But I can't really remember what happens in Casino Royal, which apparently I have to watch before I can see this one.
Wanna tag along?
(You're always going to look at me in that same, resentful stare that I'm sure you think I don't notice. The one you try to hide behind your smiles, and "I'm doing ok" attitude. Where we don't talk about anything important or real. And I'M always going to look you in the same, resentful stare that I'm sure you notice. The one I try to hide behind smiles, and "I'm doing ok" attitude. Where we continuously don't talk about anything real or important).
......
Sunday, November 9, 2008
Twilight
Twilight- the soft, diffused light from the sky when the sun is below the horizon, either from daybreak to sunrise or, more commonly, from sunset to nightfall (dictionary.com).
Ever feel like you're forever in this state where you can't quite decide if you should stay hidden in the dark. Even though you know that being in this state of limbo tortures you a little every day. Where you know that the light is coming if you would just let it. But you never really let yourself see past the horizon. You don't want to see what's on the other side, even though you know that the sunlight is a better choice than staying in the dark. But letting go of the dark means leaving a piece of you behind. Do you ever feel like you're not ready to give up the bad things because you feel like you don't deserve a life full of cloudless skies, and happy people?
Maybe the right word for this masochist.
Ever feel like you're forever in this state where you can't quite decide if you should stay hidden in the dark. Even though you know that being in this state of limbo tortures you a little every day. Where you know that the light is coming if you would just let it. But you never really let yourself see past the horizon. You don't want to see what's on the other side, even though you know that the sunlight is a better choice than staying in the dark. But letting go of the dark means leaving a piece of you behind. Do you ever feel like you're not ready to give up the bad things because you feel like you don't deserve a life full of cloudless skies, and happy people?
Maybe the right word for this masochist.
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Worth Blogging
I've decided that I want my next boyfriend to be a vampire. And if you have read, or are reading the book, Twilight then you'll know exactly what I'm talking about. =) I love how they're destined to be together, and yet forced to be apart. And the whole time you're reading you can't help but scream "JUST HAVE SEX ALREADY!" or "JUST BITE HER!! SO YOU CAN FINALLY BE TOGETHER!!!" *sigh* My favorite part about finding a good book is how excited you get when you share it with others. And that feeling afterward when you know they've started reading it and now you have someone to talk about it with!
OH Edward...where are you??
p.s. I know what I want to get for my first tattoo. *smirk*
OH Edward...where are you??
p.s. I know what I want to get for my first tattoo. *smirk*
One Step Forward....A MILLION steps back
I don't know how to talk to you.
We talk and we talk and we talk, sometimes it seems like we keep talking about the same thing! But nothing is ever going to get resolved?
And I have no idea why.
And I'm trying to give up the idea that I'll ever understand you (or that you'll ever understand me).
anywhoots!
I studied my ASS of today! I hardly ever mention school because I hate it! And therefore find no need to justify it by posting it on my blog! Meh! The truth is, I don't really hate school. I'm finally taking all the classes I WANT and that are interesting to me. I'm more ashamed of the fact that I don't put in a solid effort. I let life's curve balls deter me from that joy. Well, that all changes now (or soon!)
I'm STARVING!! MMMmmmMMM....nuggets!
We talk and we talk and we talk, sometimes it seems like we keep talking about the same thing! But nothing is ever going to get resolved?
And I have no idea why.
And I'm trying to give up the idea that I'll ever understand you (or that you'll ever understand me).
anywhoots!
I studied my ASS of today! I hardly ever mention school because I hate it! And therefore find no need to justify it by posting it on my blog! Meh! The truth is, I don't really hate school. I'm finally taking all the classes I WANT and that are interesting to me. I'm more ashamed of the fact that I don't put in a solid effort. I let life's curve balls deter me from that joy. Well, that all changes now (or soon!)
I'm STARVING!! MMMmmmMMM....nuggets!
Monday, November 3, 2008
Brand New Me
I've enlisted the help of my two very good friends to help re-invent my wardrobe, and in hopes help re-invent me. Not that I don't like who I am, or that I'm this horrible person. But there's nothing wrong with taking a look back at my life so far, and thinking of ways to improve. For example, I'm going to help people as often as I can. Pay it forward. Karma. I've always believed in it, but never really followed through. What you put out there reflects on what you expect for yourself. Today we parked downtown, and someone stopped and warned us that the parking spot was a handicap spot, and that we'd get a ticket. We politely thanked them, and moved our car. JUST then, I did the same for an elderly man who parked in the exact same spot. He was genuinely thankful and I felt pretty good with my good deed.
Anyways, back to what I was saying...I can't wait for my new wardrobe! =)
Tomorrow is the election in the States. I don't know much about what's going on. But I know enough to know which way I'd vote for. The thing is I believe that we (as a species) push so hard for equality. Especially in North American Culture. We are all the same. Right? Woman are just as good as men, and visa versa. WE are not better than THEM. THEY are not inferior to US. We're the same. We need the same things to survive: food (even though preference differs), we all breathe the same air, we all need shelter (some are 4 bedrooms, some are a place made of snow that sleeps six in one room)...but we're the same. So why not be treated the same? And the thing about the soldiers overseas, to be honest I have no clue about the war, or what they're fighting for, or what they're trying to defend. So what I think easily has no merit, but has it really helped any with having your soldiers over there? And if it hasn't, whats the matter with a little change? Bring them home so they can actually be in the country that they're sworn to protect. I'm sure you'll find another reason to send them back out there. Yeah, 9/11 was horrific and I'm sure no one will ever forget that day. But please don't blame someone who's just trying to do his job and help his country the best way he knows how, just because of his name, or the color of his skin. As a visible minority I can't help but think that what if these people were Filipino? What would that mean for me? If this was WWII it would mean concentration camps for the Japanese who live in this country..all because we're afraid. But we've moved past that, haven't we? We pride ourselves in saying that we would never discriminate like that again. But the whispers and the jokes, and doubts in peoples integrity all because of how they look count for some sort of discrimination? Doesn't it?
Growing up in a very religious Protestant Christian home I've always believed in God or in a higher being. In something that is bigger than me, and that has gotten me through some pretty rough times. It's hard for me to understand people who can look out at a sky full of stars and not wonder where it all came from. Or people who can view an amazing sunset and not feel like they are a part of something bigger than anything they've ever imagined. Or even people who can sit with good friends, share funny stories, and be happy and worry free around the people you love and know they love you, and not feel like "something" is responsible for your happiness and the people in your life.
Having faith means letting go of what you know, and having faith in the things you question. Because everything that I DON'T know, I have faith will be answered one day when this body is no longer mine.
Was that too much for one blog?
Anyways, back to what I was saying...I can't wait for my new wardrobe! =)
Tomorrow is the election in the States. I don't know much about what's going on. But I know enough to know which way I'd vote for. The thing is I believe that we (as a species) push so hard for equality. Especially in North American Culture. We are all the same. Right? Woman are just as good as men, and visa versa. WE are not better than THEM. THEY are not inferior to US. We're the same. We need the same things to survive: food (even though preference differs), we all breathe the same air, we all need shelter (some are 4 bedrooms, some are a place made of snow that sleeps six in one room)...but we're the same. So why not be treated the same? And the thing about the soldiers overseas, to be honest I have no clue about the war, or what they're fighting for, or what they're trying to defend. So what I think easily has no merit, but has it really helped any with having your soldiers over there? And if it hasn't, whats the matter with a little change? Bring them home so they can actually be in the country that they're sworn to protect. I'm sure you'll find another reason to send them back out there. Yeah, 9/11 was horrific and I'm sure no one will ever forget that day. But please don't blame someone who's just trying to do his job and help his country the best way he knows how, just because of his name, or the color of his skin. As a visible minority I can't help but think that what if these people were Filipino? What would that mean for me? If this was WWII it would mean concentration camps for the Japanese who live in this country..all because we're afraid. But we've moved past that, haven't we? We pride ourselves in saying that we would never discriminate like that again. But the whispers and the jokes, and doubts in peoples integrity all because of how they look count for some sort of discrimination? Doesn't it?
Growing up in a very religious Protestant Christian home I've always believed in God or in a higher being. In something that is bigger than me, and that has gotten me through some pretty rough times. It's hard for me to understand people who can look out at a sky full of stars and not wonder where it all came from. Or people who can view an amazing sunset and not feel like they are a part of something bigger than anything they've ever imagined. Or even people who can sit with good friends, share funny stories, and be happy and worry free around the people you love and know they love you, and not feel like "something" is responsible for your happiness and the people in your life.
Having faith means letting go of what you know, and having faith in the things you question. Because everything that I DON'T know, I have faith will be answered one day when this body is no longer mine.
Was that too much for one blog?
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Scared, and not because it's Halloween.
Something happened today. Something life altering. Something that I feel so stupid for because I had a feeling. You know, those feelings you can't explain but you know in your gut something is wrong or something is going to happen. Well, here it is. It happened....
And I'm so so scared. =(
Congratulations on graduating!!!! =) Remember when I let you in on a secret that I'm jealous of everyone who's buying a house, or getting married, etc. I'm secretly jealous of you. I wish I was graduating!! But I'm sooo happy for you! Now if only we could find Sebastien.
And I'm so so scared. =(
Congratulations on graduating!!!! =) Remember when I let you in on a secret that I'm jealous of everyone who's buying a house, or getting married, etc. I'm secretly jealous of you. I wish I was graduating!! But I'm sooo happy for you! Now if only we could find Sebastien.
Monday, October 27, 2008
HOW COULD I FORGET!!!!
I'm soooo sad that you're leaving!!!
Now that I look back on the past 10 years of my life...you are probably the only guy I can say that has truly been there for me.
=(
I'm going to miss you're stupid stupid comments about how skinny I am, how dumb I am, how annoying I am, how much of a whore you think I am....
...and I know you'll miss me too, you fag!
Now that I look back on the past 10 years of my life...you are probably the only guy I can say that has truly been there for me.
=(
I'm going to miss you're stupid stupid comments about how skinny I am, how dumb I am, how annoying I am, how much of a whore you think I am....
...and I know you'll miss me too, you fag!
Defense Wins the Game
This weekend was eventful and MUCH needed. However, I've now completely lost my voice! It's is no longer raspy in that sexy kind of way. It's sounds like I should be in a very bad horror movie. But it was worth the sacrifice! HSM3 was AMAZING! Oh Troy! =) Dj Jazzy Jeff was.....eventful. But the bright side was the I was able to catch up with so many people I haven't seen in forever (but I didn't even get to see the ONE person I wanted to). And then of course....much thanks to Ace and Cat, and CONGRATS on your beautiful new home!!! I swear, there are too many stories for one place! hahahaha...I can't remember the last time I laughed so hard!
I've figured out something...he has absolutely no idea what he wants. But I know it's not me. And maybe it is kinda sad that I want someone who doesn't want me. But who hasn't felt like that at some point in time? I know it'll get better.
I just need a distraction....the HOTTEST distraction I can find! hahahaha...jk!
I let my former twin down this weekend, and I felt so bad I sent her some flowers. I don't care what you say...everyone enjoys flowers! If you say you don't like flowers (like I used to say) then you don't understand that it isn't the FLOWERS it's the fact that someone cares enough about you to try to get you to smile a little. =)
Can you believe I got sucked back into Money Mart?! I can! hahaha...but I'm actually looking forward to it (a little).
That's enough for today.
I've figured out something...he has absolutely no idea what he wants. But I know it's not me. And maybe it is kinda sad that I want someone who doesn't want me. But who hasn't felt like that at some point in time? I know it'll get better.
I just need a distraction....the HOTTEST distraction I can find! hahahaha...jk!
I let my former twin down this weekend, and I felt so bad I sent her some flowers. I don't care what you say...everyone enjoys flowers! If you say you don't like flowers (like I used to say) then you don't understand that it isn't the FLOWERS it's the fact that someone cares enough about you to try to get you to smile a little. =)
Can you believe I got sucked back into Money Mart?! I can! hahaha...but I'm actually looking forward to it (a little).
That's enough for today.
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