Scared, and not because it's Halloween.

Something happened today. Something life altering. Something that I feel so stupid for because I had a feeling. You know, those feelings you can't explain but you know in your gut something is wrong or something is going to happen. Well, here it is. It happened....

And I'm so so scared. =(




Congratulations on graduating!!!! =) Remember when I let you in on a secret that I'm jealous of everyone who's buying a house, or getting married, etc. I'm secretly jealous of you. I wish I was graduating!! But I'm sooo happy for you! Now if only we could find Sebastien.

HOW COULD I FORGET!!!!

I'm soooo sad that you're leaving!!!

Now that I look back on the past 10 years of my life...you are probably the only guy I can say that has truly been there for me.

=(

I'm going to miss you're stupid stupid comments about how skinny I am, how dumb I am, how annoying I am, how much of a whore you think I am....

...and I know you'll miss me too, you fag!

Defense Wins the Game

This weekend was eventful and MUCH needed. However, I've now completely lost my voice! It's is no longer raspy in that sexy kind of way. It's sounds like I should be in a very bad horror movie. But it was worth the sacrifice! HSM3 was AMAZING! Oh Troy! =) Dj Jazzy Jeff was.....eventful. But the bright side was the I was able to catch up with so many people I haven't seen in forever (but I didn't even get to see the ONE person I wanted to). And then of course....much thanks to Ace and Cat, and CONGRATS on your beautiful new home!!! I swear, there are too many stories for one place! hahahaha...I can't remember the last time I laughed so hard!

I've figured out something...he has absolutely no idea what he wants. But I know it's not me. And maybe it is kinda sad that I want someone who doesn't want me. But who hasn't felt like that at some point in time? I know it'll get better.

I just need a distraction....the HOTTEST distraction I can find! hahahaha...jk!

I let my former twin down this weekend, and I felt so bad I sent her some flowers. I don't care what you say...everyone enjoys flowers! If you say you don't like flowers (like I used to say) then you don't understand that it isn't the FLOWERS it's the fact that someone cares enough about you to try to get you to smile a little. =)

Can you believe I got sucked back into Money Mart?! I can! hahaha...but I'm actually looking forward to it (a little).

That's enough for today.