goodbye 2009

December 31, 2009.

It is 3:40pm. I just spent the day doing last minute errands with the sister, picking out something to wear tonight, driving around dropping off tickets and blah blah blah. Now I'm at home, I ordered a pizza (large pep and mush, regular crust from Dominoes) and I'm about to get high, pop in a movie and veg out until it's time to ring in the new year.

Time to say goodbye to 2009.

I'm glad it's over. Did I accomplish everything that I wanted in '09? HELL NO! I'm still a smoker, I'm still at Money Mart, I'm still in square one.

However 2009 wasn't a complete disaster. It was actually not that bad now that I think of it.
I'm eager to enter the new year tho. I'm going to really really push myself to become a non-smoker. I truly hate this about myself and I realized it's been my new year's resolution to quit smoking for 3 years now!! I mean, how pathetic is that?! One of my other new years resolutions is to stop texting/pinning while I drive. It's so dangerous! And yet I can't help it! And the only other thing I can think of that I really want to improve about me, is to reach out and stay close to some of my friends (especially the girls, y'all know who you are).

I know I'm different, I know I rarely speak about myself and what's happening with me. I hide behind my new friends and what not because I'm more comfortable with the fact that no body really knows me anymore. Cuz I don't really know me anymore. But I'm figuring it out. I've been too long on my own now. Time to reconnect, let more people in. I preach it allll the time, but I rarely ever listen to my own advice.

You're only as strong as the people around you.

So..my pizza should be here soon. I'm very excited to ring in the new year (I wonder who I'll kiss at midnight..haha!) I think I'm even more excited to finally let this year and all it's baggage go, and enter into 2010 bigger, better and most importantly...happy.

p.s. I realized that I'm going to this party tonight with just Jonio. And.....I can't handle drunk Jonio bymyself. Especially since I'm not going to be myself...I'll be drunk Jayne. And sober Jayne can hardly control Jonio when he's wasted! The last time I was responsible to bring Jonio home he clotheslined HIMSELF with a low hanging tree branch. Ahh...tonight should be fun!

Drink responsibly!