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Ok universe, it's me again!

I'm working my ass off, and most days are good days and I'm super grateful....but I need tomorrow to be good. I need it to be great actually...soo, if you could look into all the good karma I've been building up...I know my bad karma outweighs the good...but I could use an extra bit of the good stuff in the next few weeks.

Thanks so much!

-Jayne

spring

Another birthday has come and gone. I'm 26! How fucking gross is that?!
What can I say about this past year. It definitely had it's downs...and in the past few months it seemed like all I ever was was down, and never up. I think it has something to do with the seasons and all the darkness in the winter. Winter depression? Is there such a thing? Anyways..25 was a fairly good year. I'm still single and still at a job I hate most days. But I've taken steps to be better, and overall I'm happy.
I'm really excited for summer. Last summer set the bar pretty high, but I still have high hopes. :)

I don't really have anything on my mind right now that's worth sharing. I've been having so many thoughts about life and being in your twenty's and how it's not nearly as fun as I thought it'd be. Like forreal..being an adult sucks.
But in times of trouble, or doubt, or wonder I can't help but put pen to paper. So, today is my piece. Blahhhhh

hmmm

You know how ppl who have near death experiences say "my whole life flashed before my eyes"? But it's not reallyyy their whole life...it's probably just the important parts. The moments in your life that define you. The ones that had the most impact.
But what about those other moments? The ones that you let pass by. The moments you wished you seized but never did.

Ever think...after you die, you get to look back at those moments? The "what if" moments. Do you think you can get a replay of those moments and see what happens if you chose differently. If you had stayed instead of left? Said what you wanted to say, instead of what you did. If you had taken the one job instead of the other? Just to see..this is what your life could have been.

snowdays

This is the first year where I'm actually excited that my birthday is in the winter since I've now discovered snowboarding.
March 6th, boarding at Frostfire! So excited!

Things are looking up. I'm happy because I've realized I've got good people in my life to help. All I need to do is ask. I dunno why, but I've stopped asking.

It's the day after valentine's day...going on a lunch date.

=)

See ya!

scotomo

I went snow boarding for the first time on saturday. It was sooo fun! I can't wait to go again. But my body aches all over! This is what I get for not being more active. Faith says that for my first time I did surprisingly well and that maybe after alll these years of being lazy I've found my calling! Hahaha

I'm currently waiting at the doctors office. I hate it here. It smells like old people and I'm always so paranoid about germs.

I keep thinking of what I wanna do with my life and how to just be happy, b/c I've been kind of down a little..I keep fantasizing about picking up my life and moving away.

I have a destination in mind..baby steps tho, right??? Gotta crawl before you can walk.

Blahhhh!!

the first two days are always the worst

Kim left for Calgary for work for a few days...it was a BITCH and yet an adventure walking to and from the parkade at the new airport.
But mmmm..Harvey's made up for it!
Parking was $7.75, tho! So I think her friendship fee will be due early this year. LOL

Today (technically it's yesterday) I had the day off, I did laundy-6 loads, including towels, bed sheets, and some of Jam's clothes.
I hung out with my lady friends, gave myself a mani/pedi, I got high and caught up with Janely and someone, and had a discussion about how much it sucks being a grown up with Faith...BUT my big accomplishment is that I cleaned AND rearranged my room! I like it. I feel like my room has good energy. :) maybe that'll mean good dreams and a better sex life! Haha.

Lastly..here's my question: why do people write a blog? Some people write blogs and get PAID! Like...it's there job! Others...????
I imagine I'm an old lady reading allll my pervious blog entries, and journals saying stuff like "wow, jayne! What the hell was your problem!?" Hahaha

turtles, turtles, rah rah rah!

I got in a huge fight with my mother last night

She made me cry

I haven't cried in a while.
I used to cry all the time: movies, Grey's Anatomy, those war child commercials...you name it, and I would well up!

She really made me cry.

I hated it.